For I am about to do something. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? Isaiah 34:19
Leaving my youngest son off at college is hard. It's hard for different reasons than when I left my first born at college. It is hard because school is not easy for this one. Directions are not easy for this one. Change is not easy for this one. He is going to have to do all the things he doesn't naturally like to do on his own. It is going to be hard for him. And his hard is my hard. My momma heart aches knowing the struggles he is going to have to face in this new difficult place.
As the tears run down my face, I think of someone else who left a son in place where it would be hard for him. A place that was foreign to his nature. A place that did not know him. A place the father knew he had to leave him and not intervene for him. Because in leaving him there, the world would be made a better place.
You see, God sent his one and only son to earth as a baby. A place that didn't know him. A place that was unfamiliar to him. A place that wasn't going to be easy for him. And God left him there. For us. He could have removed him. Helped him. Puts guards around him. Forced people to like and accept him. But he didn't. He didn't because he knew it was best for us.
Jesus didn't need earth. We needed him.
I am reminded that God is about doing a great work in my life and in the lives of those I love. And God work is hard work. God-sized changes only occur when we surrender and yield to his touch. His touch is best felt when we have nothing else in our grasp and there is a void in the world around us. Isaiah 34:19 states" For I am about to do something. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?"
I ache to run back and help my baby. I want to make the transition easy for him, but I can't. My son needs this time of transition. He needs the hard in his life so God can do great things in him and for him.
If I constantly protect the ones I love from doing difficult things, they will come to me and not God for their provision, comfort, strength and support. I want them to seek God and find Him during every season of their lives. I want them to know Him intimately and that type of relationship is only forged through fire. Ultimately, I want God’s best for them.
So, I leave him alone to make his own way. Supported from afar. Prayed for fervently.
Deep down I know it's the right thing to do.
But for now, this momma's heart is breaking from this season of a hard transition probably like my Heavenly Father’s heart broke when He left his son here on earth those many seasons ago.
Things to Ponder:
What new thing does God want to do in your life? In the life of your children? Spouse? Friends?
Where do you need to stop intervening and let God do the work he desires?
Words to Read:
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11 (ESV)
And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6 (ESV)
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16 (ESV)
Between a husband, 2 sons, and teaching high school my sanity is found in running and Starbucks. I have a circle of running friends who inspire me to be authentic and real as I live a life of faith before them.