I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I hope; my soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen for morning, more than watchmen for the morning. Psalms 130:5-6
Antsy. I can't sit still. I fidget twisting and turning in the padded folding chair. Uncomfortable. Confined. Trapped. Sitting. Waiting. Waiting for my outpatient to wake up. Waiting so we can go home.
Just like a night watchman waits for the sun to come up signaling the end of his shift, all is well, and its time to go home, I was waiting for the eyes of my loved one to open signaling that the surgery was over, he was okay and we could go home.
I don’t know about you but I don’t always wait well. I am good with waiting when it is on my terms, but I am terrible at it when it is on someone else’s terms.
It’s hard to wait. We find ourselves anxiously waiting for so many things. A job promotion. Wayward children. Pregnancy. Adoption. Grandchildren. Repairmen. Test results. Healing. Home ownership. Retirement. Sleep. Friends. Acceptance. Recognition.
Psalms 130:5 holds a key to waiting. You see, most of the time when we are queued up and waiting we fidget, anxious for the outcome. Anxious for resolution. Anxious that it will work out for the best. Anxious because of the unknown. Anxious because we are not in control. The writer in Psalms says there is a different way to wait.
In Psalms 130:5-6 he states that he waits, but that when he waits, he waits for the Lord, not the outcome. His waiting is on God, not the result. He is watching for what God is going to do, not on how things are going to turn out. His hope is in what God has promised. He is trusting the unknown to the One he knows. The writer knows that God has promised He will provide for us (I Timothy 6:17). He will protect us (Psalms 91:14). He is with us (Joshua 1:9). He will do what is best for us (Romans 8:28).
Psalms 42:5 states it this way, “Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation.
Just as a watchman waits knowing the sun will rise and his shift will end, we can wait knowing that somewhere in the midst of our circumstances we will see the goodness of the Lord because that is what He promised and eventually all waiting comes to an end.
Between a husband, 2 sons, and teaching high school my sanity is found in running and Starbucks. I have a circle of running friends who inspire me to be authentic and real as I live a life of faith before them.