Who saved us and called us to a holy calling, not because of our works, but because of his own purpose, and grace, which he gave us in Christ Jesus before the ages began, and which now has been manifested through the appearing of our Savior Christ Jesus. 2 Timothy 1: 9-10.
Sometimes I struggle with knowing what my purpose is, especially in the transitional stages of my life. College. Career. Marriage. Kids. Staying home. Ministry. School aged-children. Teens. Back to work. Graduates. Empty nest. Married children. Menopause. Job changes. Friend changes. House changes. Elderly parents. Health issues. Hair issues.
Each time a new phase starts in my life, I start asking myself, “Where do I belong? How do I fit into this new space?” You see, for me life changes are like trying to replace a favorite pair of jeans, I struggle with them until the new pair becomes the old pair. I am a slow to launch introvert. It takes me awhile to adjust to life’s alterations. Familiar makes me feel safe, secure, and confident. New makes me feel unsteady and unsure as if I am wandering in the wilderness after dark tripping and stumbling over unseen rocks and roots.
The beauty of 2 Timothy 1:9-10 is that my purpose isn’t about me. It’s not about finding my way through a strange city without the aid of Google maps. It’s not about finding the job that gives me passion and fulfills me. It’s not about raising perfect children or Pintresting my house perfectly. It’s not about me at all. It’s about Him. I don’t have to work at finding my purpose. My purpose isn’t something to be found; it is something to be experienced. My purpose is a calling. My purpose is a calling to a relationship. My purpose is a calling to love and follow Jesus.
When I love and follow Jesus, God fulfills his purpose in me. I don’t have to struggle with knowing what I am supposed to be doing with my life. I just need to love and follow Jesus trusting God to take care of the rest. I need to trust that He will bring purpose to all the unsettling transitions in my life.
So as I navigate each new uneasy season of life, I need to put my heart and soul at ease knowing that God’s guiding grace is steadying my topsy-turvy world with meaning and purpose.
Between a husband, 2 sons, and teaching high school my sanity is found in running and Starbucks. I have a circle of running friends who inspire me to be authentic and real as I live a life of faith before them.